I am trying my best to figure out a plan on how to get out of the current job that I’m in, or to get a transfer to Bucks County. If I can get a transfer, I don’t see how it could be so difficult to make things work better in my favor. Sure, I will be in an unfamiliar setting, but nobody will no much of me. I will be able to showcase the skill set that I have, and hopefully be appreciated within the company. As of now, there is just total ignorance of management. My mental health condition is being used against me, and I cannot move up in my current department. Plus, my department manager doesn’t know how to talk to anybody at all.
I think I will make it a point to visit the store I would like to transfer to, and get the ball rolling. Like I said before, the HR didn’t have the time to talk to me, which is her JOB to keep the employees happy, right? Shop stewards don’t really help, because the union never gives a clear cut answer. It’s either, yes I can transfer with the same amount of hours, or yes you can transfer but the hours might be a little different, yet you’ll be in the same department. The main issue is the raise part, which I sure as hell am not getting at this current location. I heard that stores in Bucks are starting off at $15 per hour…..do I make close to that, after 11 years? NO!!
I will gladly live in a mobile home, if I have to, just to fulfill my goals to move out of the house. As long as I can afford the bills and all.
I just need to have WiFi, so I can continue to upload content to this lovely blog. I mean, I can do it through my phone, but I use OpenOffice to type everything out, and then transfer it all over to the site. If that plan of moving into an affordable place doesn’t work, I can always commute back and forth to work, or stay in Bucks County with some family. These are all just ideas floating inside my head.
I can always look for health coverage of my own, and look for a job, that’ll offer me something more. Something that will take my skill set, seriously. I want to feel better when it comes to my mental health realm, and nothing is helping me. If I remove myself from the environment, it could spark the change that I really need. I just have the strong impulse to quit, and I don’t know if I can hold it off any longer.
I am at a crossroads right now, and I need to pick a direction to go. I believe the blog is pointing me in the correct direction, but not everything else though. I want my feelings to be valid. I want to feel like I am part of the team, and not just existing. There are several weeks, that I work paycheck to paycheck. I am sure there are others that are like this too, don’t get me wrong. But I want better things in my life, such as a stable mind, better paying job, security of employment and feeling like I am worth something in this life. I want to be given a chance to DO something.