The mood swings associated with Borderline Personality Disorder can be really intense. To state some symptoms, that I covered before, are as followed:
“Intense anger that they [sic] have trouble controlling
• Paranoid thoughts.
• Extreme sensitivity to perceived rejection and abandonment.
• Feelings of emptiness.
• Inability to self-soothe.
• Feeling dissociated from oneself, including observing oneself from outside the body or not feeling in touch with reality.”
Now, like I have always say, everything I say, is in my own experience. This is to keep this blog feeling more personal, but I will provide information like above, to help me out. I am still learning this disorder, and it will be a lifelong lesson.
Us, borderliners, can have mood swings over the most minor things, whether it be external or internal. We have a habit of knocking ourselves down, because we feel that strongly about our emotions. Something minor, can set over a time bomb in our minds!
• Feeling content.
• Wanting to self harm.
• Substance abuse.
• Suicidal thoughts and behaviors.
We can cycle through our moods within hours or even as short as minutes! Trust me, it can be really annoying to not having complete control over your emotions. Unless you are a master at DBT and CBT, which focus on trying to regulate the emotions within.
I read another article, which I cannot seem to find at the moment, but kind of knew this from personal experience. Medication doesn’t really regulate the emotional side of BPD. I have to keep checking my blog, so I don’t repeat myself a lot, but for me, it doesn’t work. Yeah, I think I did say this….whoops.
Apparently there are studies that are trying to figure out the Borderline brain, which is a really good thing! I want to raise awareness about this issue, because it can serious sideline a person from working. Mental health, of any sort, is not a laughing matter. Our brains function in a way that others just don’t understand. We are still human!
Just stop for one second: think about a severe event that took place in your life. Got it? Now, amplify those feelings AND go down a “rabbit hole” with those emotions. Let those emotions sweep over you for hours on end, without being able to shut the voices off……It’s your voice, don’t worry. That’s a slice of how we feel inside, as we can cycle the emotions. We can want to self harm because of anger, but twenty minutes later, we are laughing about some meme (or anything else that triggers the emotion.)
If you know anybody with BPD, please know that they are constantly struggling to function as “normally” as possible. Let them know that you care about them, offer a shoulder to lean on, a hug, anything to make them feel secure! To all my fellow Borderliners: we are not alone, and we will prevail !
Let’s raise awareness as best as possible!
Just in case y’all need some help, which I am here for you!!
You can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255.
You can reach the Crisis Text Line 24/7 by texting “START” to 741-741.
You can call The Trevor Project, an LGBT crisis intervention and suicide prevention hotline, 24/7 at 1-866-488-7386.