So I have been thinking a lot about this blog, and I still am curious as to what direction I am going with this. I just don’t want to be a blog that constantly complains about everything about life, but I do not think that I do.I have many moments that I feel happiness and joy, but I will dismiss it because I run back to the negative. I cannot explain why I do this, but I do.
I believe that I will get better over time, I really do. Despite my negative behaviors, I really want to become better. I took the time out to get trained in work, which I probably mentioned, and a coworker is constantly making me apply those skills. Other than that, I still struggle with my place in the whole realm of work. It seems like I am laying dormant again, waiting for a magical thing to happen.
Speaking of magical, I wanted to try getting into Wicca or Spirituality, so I can ground myself. I am trying to put myself in positions that challenge myself. Like, I have tried to talk to females and build up confidence. Before, it was like “h..h…hello.” and that was literally everything I would say. But now, I am making small talk and all. As of now, I am in the midst of a struggle with myself.
Perhaps I will go more into detail with another post. I just want to get something out there, in the blog world.
If I don’t put anything out, I feel like I am not doing SOMETHING. Hopefully others can relate, if not, like to read my rants. Well, I’ll catch everybody in the next one!